Worrying About Weight
March 31, 2010 § 5 Comments
This is a heady post for me and one of those that I’m tempted to delete before I even get started.
But what keeps me writing is that I know I am not alone in this issue. This is for anyone who has struggled with their own weight issues (over or under) and have children currently dealing with them.
For a little perspective…here is a picture that best reflects what I look like now.
This was taken last May so it’s about a year old. Add a little bit under the chin and few inches to the hair and that’s what I look like today. Sure, I won’t win any beauty contests but I’m still kinda cute.
Here’s what I looked like in 2003 and I’m not proud of it so please be kind…
Egads! Emaciated only begins to describe it and the worst part is, at the time, I really didn’t see it.
You know, for a long time I resented my sister for saying, “You look like you have aids.” And though she could have been more tactful, in reality, she wasn’t so far off the mark to suggest I looked like I had some life threatening disease.
It wasn’t until I stepped on a scale and noticed I weighed only 108 lbs that I thought twice about it. I weighed 112 when I was a scrawny 14 year old. I weighed between 128 – 134 consistently my entire adult life, even after two pregnancies.
I never had to worry about my weight until then. I readily bounced back to my regular figure and weight after both of my kids without any effort. So what caused the drastic weight loss? The only thing that comes to mind is that I got braces and ate much less.
The truth is, I’m not sure what happened but after the braces came off it wasn’t long before I put the weight back on and then some. And now 7 years later, I could stand to lose a few (or twenty) pounds.
The point is, I have a daughter who is struggling with her own weight issues and I worry that my fretting over a few extra pounds might contribute to an unhealthy example. And looking at pictures like that last one, I’m beginning to question whether or not I have set a good example thus far.
What I’ve tried to emphasize over the years is the importance of a healthy diet, regular exercise and investing in developing your mind and your soul.
I just want to be able to walk my talk so I help, rather than hinder, my daughter’s progress.